Hardships

Lately I've been going through a rough patch in my life, now this isn't the worst obstacle I've had to go through but perhaps the effects of this one is the worst.

Now, naturally it doesn't help that I am the type to OVER-stress and cause myself great anxiety and fear. But ever since my orientation for college was coming I suddenly began panicking, "what if I don't do well," "what if I don't get any classes and can't graduate," "how will I be able to afford this, will financial aid cover everything?", and most of all "what do I truly even want to do with my life?" 

Now those are only the thoughts about college and my future career path. Definitely the matter of lack of self-esteem and even being depressed also played into hand. However, this made me all the more grateful for my close friends and my family. During this rough time, my close friend really snapped me into a more realistic outlook should I say?, He told me that I should start living for myself and not for others, that we've suffered for far too long and that really in the end our happiness matters above all else. After talking to my mom about this further, she said the exact same thing, and at first I thought she would never understand, but really I'm glad that she was able to understand my thoughts and reassured me that she would be proud of my decisions and the path that I would take. Also my brother, who is always very supportive of me and helping my parents to have a more open outlook, which I'm always grateful for. Really, all I have to say is that during such times having a good foundation of relationships with family and friends is crucial. Because really without them, I definitely would have had a much bigger breakdown than necessary. 

But what I really wanted to say is having the "right" friends is significant. As me and a close friend of mine have recently experienced, hanging out with the wrong people has really caused us so much unnecessary stress and a toll on emotions. Really, it was just to the point where in the end we were just completely over the whole situation. People who only victimize themselves and antagonize everyone else, those who continuously lie, and most of all those who absolutely refuse to step off their high horse will never succeed. They may try to succeed, but really they will never find their own happiness. Leaving such people is honestly the best decision you can make, all that unnecessary negativity is honestly just outrageous.  

If anything, perhaps these hardships, always different but just hardships in general, whether it be personal or even conflicts with "friends", I like to believe that they make you into a better you, I should say. The key is to really never stop, as cliche as it sounds, I believe it's true.

On another note, I know I've said that I would update more since summer started, but really I have no excuse, I've just slacked off completely. But it's definitely time for me to start picking things back up and getting my act/life together!

Hopefully this could be of some help.